My horoscopes told me that today is a good day to put things into words so I can reflect back on them later..and I thought that was a good idea. So. Here goes!:

I'm surprised and amazed at how everything is falling into place.  
The random pieces that were once strewn across the floor are now connected.  Another piece of the puzzle found to fill in the void, further completing the mysterious picture of what I call life. Each time I find another piece, I get a little closer to true happiness. Will I ever find out what true happiness looks like? These missing pieces are harder and harder to discover with each piece that I find.  But I will not give up.  Why settle for partial happiness when you know that there's something better out there, if you push hard enough.  

And I guess this is where I write a witty transition of this analogy and how it relates to my life.  
Since the start of 2010, I have turned over a new leaf without even noticing.  Perhaps somethng deep in my subconcious was sick of everything and wanted to do something about it.  
Throughout 2009, I keep claiming that it was a shitty year.  Maybe that's how I kept aggregating all this negative energy.  It just cries out for horrible things to happen.  
I felt like a lot of doors have been shut and locked in front of me. I run towards my desires only to find myself running into glass walls...preventing me from going any further.  
So what do I do, sit there and mope and say that I'm useless?
But as the saying goes, when one door closes, another one opens.  
I guess so many doors have been closing around me that I focus in more of that than realizing all the other doors that have opened.  
That's why this year, I turn my back to these locked doors.  There's a reason why they are closed.  I turn to the open doors of 2010.  
No more sitting and moping.
And that glass wall with my desires on the other side? I'll get a sledgehammer and knock that wall down as for nothing can stop me now. I'll find a way. :]